It sure has been a while since I have been on here. But I feel like posting would be nice again. So I was away for the last 6 days at a wedding for my boyfriend’s brother. It was really nice, and seeing my boyfriend was great. It had been a couple weeks since I had seen him last.
Something was definitely different though. He just seemed off pretty much the entire time I was there. Now that I am back home, getting him to talk to me is like pulling teeth, it was like this the couple weeks before I saw him too. He never texts me unless I text him first, and the only time he’ll call is at 6 am when he is driving his step father to work. I feel like I am losing him. Which really really sucks. I saw more than just a few months with him. It’s been a little over 8 months now, and I can honestly say I thought I would be with him a lot longer. We haven’t broken up yet, I can feel it coming though. And I don’t want it to happen at all.
So I am doing something that if any of my friends did I would slap them. I am waiting for him to do it. Because I want all of the time with him that I can have. I know it’s stupid, since it will end up hurting more in the long run. I should have known though. He warned me in the beginning that emotions and relationships weren’t really his thing. So that’s that. I am really sad about it. Sad isn’t even the right word. Sad sounds stupid, it’s much more than sad, I just don’t know what to call it.
